Recap...

Just a recap of the thoughtst that keep blasting to my head tonight...

I guess I am the kind of person who never think bad of a person until there's some genuine proof

I really hate prejudice and judging, cause who the hell we are to conclude about someone's life

But then that also my weakness, I usually start as an ignorant person, never mind other people's business or life till they convey it to me

But when my instinct permit me to start getting close with anyone, for any reason, friends or relationship.. I am just blocking out the possibility of bad stuff... but then this is hurting me when I found my expectation are not met. Or when they stabbing me on the back. Kind of naive.. (may be that's what keep me kind of being reserved sometimes..)

And it makes me furious like hell when people still having doubtful intention with me while I begin to put my trust and respect on them. (well, who doesnt Alina!) I take it as an insult more than anything..(remind me of my hell fight with a lady sometimes in the past which I still can not understand why she was doing that to me) Or may be I am furious because I feel stupid and betrayed of laying down my trust on a wrong hand?

Well dont get me wrong, I know the world is not heaven, I am ready to fight or compete with anyone who clearly state their line.. but I guess I need to learn to distinguish those who are in disguise

I think i am just mumbling here... or over reacting, may be I will write again once I can clearly define the turbulence on my head. What the hell, this is my blog, and this is how I express my self at this state of minds and emotion.

Actually as long as a person is fair and sincere, and we got the chemistry, I think we will get along fine. Regardless what this person does in his life, cause again who am I to judge.. but at least I deserve to have the comfort and trust with these people to be around.

Well, I guess I am over reacting. So be it, enjoy the moment before we start callibrating our state of mind of emotion after the turbulence. It's another documentary, good to be emotional sometimes

*this writing applies to all general thing in life, not only for particular moment although this might be triggerred by emotional state of dealing with a particular moment (which I still try to understand)